Stuff

 Sometimes

I am sad

I think of all the things I didn't do

all the missed opportunities but

most of the time

I am glad

and amazed by my life 

and that I am alive

and where I am 

sitting on the sofa holding up an old cat

is where I am supposed to be 

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I used to like the wind

and storms

but 

that was before

now

I know what pain is

I know what loss is

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trying 

to be in the moment

trying

not to think of the moments I have not be in